Au Revoir, Connard

2014

I think I was trying to write a country song here, I'm not sure. Oh well. Enjoy. 🤠 

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You'd better be sure before you walk away
Better be sure
Because you aren't coming back
Turn your back and I'll forget you
Erase you
Won't waste another minute on thoughts of you

Can't hold me back
Who do you think you're leaving
Go on, go away
I believe enough for us both
Run to your easy girl
I could never be that simple
She's got a permanent smile
But what lies behind it
Will it be enough for you

Maybe you'll get lucky
Or maybe you'll crawl back my way
thinking you can work yourself in
to my life but you see
That no longer includes you

Sorry but what did I tell you
Fool me once, shame on you
You know the rest
Don't you remember
You had my best
But you're not alone
You've got her now
What, she's not me?

Woe is You

Behind the blue
You should see it all
But what would you do
So much red
Could pour out of my ears
Maybe then you'd see
No lies, no, not from me

The neverending pain
There is no pity here
Only the shame
Of knowing I've let you down
Oh no, once again
You poor thing

Why don't you take it
Could change your mind a little
Open your eyes
To how some must live
My smiles and my laughter
You would never know
Makes you feel better
And lets me escape a while

But I know
And you know
We just play our roles

See You Next Tuesday

Their eyes dance as they tell
The criticism
And me, I stand in awe
Of their gift of judgment

The others stand unharmed
And lean in close to hear
The lies, the truth-sounding lies
Deception and manipulation, the keys
To the doors of their own little hell

The devil's sweet smile on their faces
do tell
The only defense to sound defensive
in the heart of the wicked game
they say my name
But little do they know 
they'll be put to shame

So I'll just grow stronger
Backbone made of steel
the light I've been given
Imagine, it's so real

Until the end of my time
When they've all had their fill
And I get to go home
Mercy rain on me still

Set Me Free

I had a dream that you walked in
Found me on the floor
And I said, let me go
The pain is finally ending
I feel it washing away

I am lying on the shore
Walk a little further
And this will be no more

You will never understand
But God please take me
You know I try every day
Wake up with bright-eyed hope
That this day will be different

The sun through the curtains
Dancing off the walls
But when you can't stop to feel
Freedom    
Love 
Joy
What can I endure
My brain overtaken by knives
What more can I do
Who can I become
Have mercy on me
Oh Lord set me free

2014

Eyes Closed

Perfect vision, yet your eyes closed to it all
So that when you stumble, you say, why did I fall
They laugh because it's pathetic
You cry because you fear
You may never see what was meant for you 
that is so dear
Can't keep pretending there is so much more
When you're walking backwards, away from the door


2002

This is the first poem I wrote. (I may have written others when I was younger but I was 21 when I wrote this and that feels like a lifetimes ago)

The Girls

The girls who get the boys
Ones with the pretty voice
Always smiling, it never fades
Light on her face, see no shade
If she were a flower, always in bloom
Never wilt like me, never see gloom

But wilt and die I'd rather
Than be a fake arrangement no matter
How long it lasted
Beauty be blasted

I've lived and I've learned
I've worked and I've earned
The right to be true
For me, not for you

2011